Transitioning from military to civilian life has been harder than what I thought. I have been through briefings about the transition and also talked to a few people who already got out. The reality is that the briefings I received did not help one bit. The transition has been testing and stretching my faith. Since the start, we have had issue after issue, road block after road block and a bunch of speed bumps along the way.
One of the hardest things hit by the transition has been my finances. One thing after another has happened in the last year to drain our savings and make things tighter than ever before. We had to drive from up north to the south multiple times, looking for a house, and moving my family to my in-laws house in the midwest, and back again. I was living in a camper in Tennessee because we could not get a house to all be together. My truck broke down, and my wife’s van got totaled by a lady who ran a stop sign in the same week. This is a lot, but the list goes on. But, God was with us every step of the way and gave us a lot to be thankful for. I was able to trade in my truck and get a good deal on a different one. My family walked away from the wreck mostly unharmed. He always provided and always came through. Yes, I have had my good and bad days. I have had fear; fear of starting a new business from the ground up that I knew little about, fear of failing my family, and fear of not making it work. When I have my days of doubt and fear, I would talk to God and I would remember what His word says and His promises.
God is Bigger…
The Lord is the strength of my life, of whom shall I fear? When the wicked, and my foes came upon me, they stumbled and fell. They will encamp against me, my heart shall not fear. I have a promise. Turning back is not an option. There’s a calling on my life, and I’m not about to drop it, I got this! For this, I was chosen. The final word over me was spoken before I was born. I have a purpose that goes far beyond what I want, feel, or see. With God, all things are possible!
When my desire aligns with the divine, I am unstoppable! Of course the climb is hard. The dream is difficult by design to make sure I rely on Him, His plan, his hand and not mine. My purpose was conceived in His heart. The blessing ahead is greater than the battle behind. So this is not the time to compromise or entertain a thousand lies and reasons why I can’t, or won’t.
God didn’t say he’d make it easy. He said that I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me and gives me grace to carry on. No matter what the opposition, I only need one weapon, the word of God. I’m too close to quit, the stakes are too great for me to hesitate. So whatever it cost, whatever it takes, I will keep moving forward. The fear is real but He said that He has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. God will not fail me. He will not leave me nor forsake me. I will keep moving forward!
I will step to the battle with confidence, I speak and believe its already won because it is Him who fights for me. Death and life are in the power of the tongue. He made me a promise, He gave me a calling. He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that I ask or think, according to the power that works in me . I focus my hope in Him, my excuses are gone. The time is now! the odds are great, the the pressure is on. My strength comes from the Lord, I got my stone, I am more than a conqueror and in the name of my God, I will be victorious!
2 Timothy 1:7